i'm gonna be a quarterback someday and throw for 2,000 yards

Well, the last post belonged to a different blog. So, sorry about that. But maybe it was a nice change?

News on the personal front: started NFP (natural family planning) class last night. We received it as an early wedding present from Laura and Keith. It's surprisingly interesting, I must say. I mean, the 5th grade anatomy lesson wasn't very interesting, but making charts and plotting points is something I enjoy, so this might be right up me and Pete's alley. That's all I'll say about it. It's kind of fun.

News on the wedding front: meeting with DJ Solerus tonight. And by DJ Solerous, I mean DJ Greg Sowa, son of Mr. Sowa, middle school Social Studies teacher. You can see his website here. He looks like a lot of fun. Ally goes to college with him (ha, he's a senior at UNH) and says he's a pretty good guy, despite Pete's analysis that DJ Greg sounds like a tool on the phone. I still believe in him! I'm excited to meet him, because I think he'll be a DJ that will play a lot of Lady Gaga, which is what I want.

News on the job front: who knows? On Wednesday I called the community college where I interviewed at, and they didn't get back to me yet. I might call again today. I also need to call Pete's work (they had an opening for customer service people). I'm also applying for AmeriCorps VISTA stuff again, because I just really need skills, and really have none (as far as grant writing, fundraising, and all that stuff is concerned). I'd like to work for a non-profit someday, so those skills would definitely come in handy. This time, I will not be convinced it is a bad idea. I still have bad days where I just want to cry all day in my bed, but they're a lot fewer than before.

boot bandwagon

So, I have these boots, and I'm pretty sure I haven't worn them since the capsule challenge of many months ago. I just fear that boots make my calves look big, as I have already expressed in previous posts. Still, I kind of like what's going on here.

This outfit is meant for work, though the corduroy skirt might be a tad casual for my work environment. I'm liking all the colors together: though I tend to think of jewel tones as fall-only, my last post and today's post both make use of them. It just goes to show that tealy/turquoise is a color for all seasons. As far as the casualness is concerned, I'm not that worried. The white button-up and sweater vest take care of that, methinks. The only thing I am worried about is comfort. I'm on my feet the whole time at work, bringing heavy dresses back and forth to customers all day long. I'll probably bring a change of shoe.

But, since B is basically obsessed with boots, I figured I'd give them another shot. I don't even hate the way they make my legs look, and I'm not sure if it's because I've lost a little weight since the last time I've worn them, or if it's because I just don't care as much about adding a little bulk to the calf area. Regardless, I like it all.

Boots: Marshall's or TJ Maxx
White shirt, teal vest: Old Navy
Beige skirt: hand-me-down, Old Navy
Brown tights: Target
Brown socks: Marshall's

can't wait for tomorrow

...because tomorrow I have the day off, and I have an interview. Lately, David's Bridal has been hating me. I don't sell enough, I don't even pretend to be a salesperson, and they're starting to catch on. At first they thought it was because I was new. Now they see that it's my personality. I feel guilty "asking for the sale." I don't know, I feel like, buy it if you want to, but not because I want you to. Of course, being in the sales business, I guess I have to get better at leading people subliminally, without outwardly steering. It's hard! I have respect for good salespeople, for sure, because it is definitely an art.

So, back to my point: interview tomorrow. It's at Nashua Community College, and even though it's only for a secretary position, I am feeling really hopeful. It would be in the Academic Affairs office, and it would help me know some people, so that maybe one day I could get good references or even move up. I applied to another job at NCC, that of Academic Advisor, which I actually think my education and experience have prepared me for, but I'm doubtful about that one.

Plus, I haven't really told anyone about my experience going to Simmons College the other day for an open house in their GLIS (Graduate Library and Information Science) department. It was AWESOME and basically sealed the fact that I want to be a librarian. That's why I can endure jobs that I am overqualified for: I am shooting for a someday goal, and I keep telling myself that David's Bridal and anything else is just temporary. With the wedding and marriage and all I won't be able to start until maybe next fall, which gives me some time to gather my materials and put together a showstopping application. It also gives me time to research programs; when there are only 52 in the U.S., you really have to do some soul-searching about where you want to go and what exactly you hope to do there. The program in Denver looks pretty cool, though.

And because I have to share:

That's me, in my mom's wedding dress, laughing at the thought of ever fitting into it. It's okay because, according to her, "It's SO UGLY!"

i need space! and friends.

Okay, so, for all you four people who read my blog: I am back. I am back because I need a space. I need a space because lately (no one's fault but my own) I feel isolated. As we all know, the Internet does wonders for the isolated (physically or emotionally--Second Life, anyone?)

Moving on.

I think I'm suffering from wedding apathy. Maybe it's because it doesn't feel real yet, or maybe it's because we've been rushing through the planning, but I'd be happy as a clam just taking a jaunt over to town hall to get the whole thing over with this weekend. Here is an example: for some reason, it doesn't seem overly crazy to just drive to the chapel in a regular car, rather than a limo. It's just going to be myself and my sister in the limo, right? And then on the way back it's just going to be myself and Pete. It just doesn't make much sense to me to spend money on something that is totally and completely for show, and which, on top of that, stirs up feelings of motion sickness. I understand that 99% of weddings are just for show, so I guess there goes that argument, but I don't know...I feel like a freshly-washed and waxed minivan wouldn't be the worst thing ever. Maybe it would.

On top of things like that, I have been eating. I mean, eating a lot more sweets and snacks than I have been in the past couple months. I was doing FANTASTIC with weight loss, if I do say so myself. I only have about 15 more pounds until I get to the goal I set for myself (not the ultimate goal, but a smaller one). I think I'm stressed about being apathetic, and it's feeding my feedings, if you get my drift. I am a stress eater, for sure, and it has been SO HARD to avoid treats. So hard, in fact, that I haven't been avoiding them at all. I always said I would be one of those people who, as soon as they are engaged, go on an immediate starvation diet of cough drops and lemon water, just to look good at the wedding. Instead, I have shown myself to be one of those brides who needs to buy a second wedding dress because hers no longer fits. That hasn't happened yet, but if habits don't change...

So, I'm hereby making a promise to myself, and to you, dear readers. I am going to be more salad, and less cookie. I am going to be more exercise, less lounge. And I am going to be more proactive, and less apathetic, because the latter is actually stressing me out more.

It's just a confusing and stressful time. But not, if you know what I mean.

it's been a while

hello, blogosphere! i'm back.

my computer is fixed! new hard drive is in! i have a sinking feeling The Sims broke it. wah.

BUT! i'm very happy that jen has found joy in my Sims game. hooray!

update on the job front:

interview went quite well for the hudson school district today. as much as i want to get out of hudson, i can't really do it with negative dollars in the bank and a car that won't start. SO, i've got to start somewhere! subbing it shall be, at least for now.

still working at david's bridal, though only a few hours a week right now. this week i'm only working THREE hours. that's pitiful.

i've started to send my resume out like crazy again. i took a break when i got the david's gig and my computer broke, but i think i'm feeling like i'm ready to start again. it takes a lot out of you, and you see the same ads listed on every stupid website, but i'm pushing resumes out there like crazy. "cast your net wide," as they say.

i have an interview/meeting with a woman from a temp agency in boston on thursday. that could also lead to some interesting prospects if i don't totally mess it up. it's for admin assisting, which i know i can do, but i'm hoping i can score something a little more socially redeemable than just some admin job at a giant corporation in boston. we'll see. beggars can't be choosers.