thanks

Days like this have been few and far between lately, so, I guess it makes sense that I was due for one. Today, I feel totally useless and talentless. I feel like a drain on society. I feel like I'll only ever be qualified for a part-time job as a secretary. (Did I mention I LOST MY STUDENT'S GRADES?) In short, I feel pretty crappy. Probably because I started looking at MSLIS programs again, and it became overwhelming. Regardless, I've decided to counter this new bout of blue thoughts with sunny thanksgiving. Here goes:

Today, I'm thankful for:
the best, most fun family ever.
a genuinely nice, honest, and jovial husband (who cooked me dinner last night!).
the upcoming christmas season.
a roof, running water, and a warm place to sleep.
my jobs.
a car that works.
zero wedding debt.
a sunny day.
friends who like being friends with me.
health! vigor! (vim?)

I do. I feel better. Honest!

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone. Remember to be thankful, because there's so much to give thanks for.

nanowrimo!

I just like saying "nanowrimo."

Here's what I don't like: realizing that every time I try to write any fiction it comes out seeming either half-assed or a lot like an autobiography. Why can't I just make stuff up without it sounding like crap, or worse, without it sounding forced.

That's okay, because the joy of nanowrimo is that you just write. It's impossible to worry about the nitty-gritty "I sound like a phony, I don't want Holden Caufield to hate me," business, because you've only got THIRTY DAYS to write 50,000 words. So it's just all a bunch of crap, anyway.

I am having fun exploring characters, and learning from them about what they do and where they go. Sometimes they do things that I definitely did not anticipate, so that's exciting. It's also annoying, because things start getting...different...than what I originally planned on. That's where the forcedness comes in, I guess. Sorry! Just trying to stick to my purpose! I imagine my characters rolling their eyes.

Also, holy dark, Batman! I guess I just have a thing for melodrama.